So I'm a thief

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Mushrooms

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Apparently, I'm a Celebrity?

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Survay

1.what is your full name: Raymond James MacEachern2.what colour is ur hair: brown3.What colour are your eyes: Green/Brown/Blue4. what is/ are your faviorite animal(s): Cows5. HOw old are you: 18 (19 in 32 Days!)6. when is your birthday: November 7th7.do u you have any pets, if yes what: A dog and a cat8.whats your faviorite band(s): Black Sabbath9. faviorite movie: Blow10.what is the lonliest number and why: Negitive numbers, because there always negitive11. what r u listening to rite now!!!: AFI - I Wanna Get a Mohawk12. If you "kill" one person who would it be- My english teacher. Shes a dumb bitch.13. who is your best friend: Jones14.what is your faviorite sport: LSD Team Marathons15,whats is your faviorite and least faviorite food: Pizza, Meat17.what do you think your purpose for being on earth is: To have fun18. any piercings or tattos: No19.do u have a crush on anyone: Little more then that I'd think. ;)20.faviorite game (video or board whatever): Who can pick the most field mushrooms before sunrise21.what are you planning to be for halloween: Cranked22. what do u want to be when you are older: Even more cranked23.disney character you like the most: GizomoDuck24.what do you find most beautiful in this world: Music and nature25.if you had a band what would u call it( and if ur in a band just say what band it is): A Graceful Decent26. if you were an animal, what animal what animal would you be? Cow, then I could make field mushrooms for the masses27.favorite day of the week... FRIDAY28.faviorite drink(alcoholic or not): Whiskey29.faviorite toy as a child: Your mother30.faviorite sesame street character: Big Bird lol31.faviorite tv shows as a little kid: Duck Tales32.faviorite place to be: With you.. :(33.take ur name and write a personality description for each letter:R- ResilientA- AncientY- YamesM- MortalO- OldN- ThisD- Sucks34.faviorite word- You?35.if you could communicate with one person who has died, who would it be? I donno. Someone36.if you could buy and own one celebrity as your sex slave who would it be: the fuck??37.faviorite season: Summer.. :(38.if i were to give you 100$ , what would you spend it on: Drugs or save it.39.if you could go one place in the entire universe: Some other planet with sentient life40.if you were a barbie or ken doll....what occuptation would you impose : Most likly being a childs toy?

A sudden shake to the world around me.. Glass walls quiver..

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. More Fuck.My mother is gonna flip if she comes home and I'm here and not in school.. But what good is going to school like this.. End result is I'd end up talking to the guidance counceler about my 'problems' if I went to school like this. Fuck that. I'm not wasting my time talking to someone who thinks they can make me feel any better.. The only thing that can make me feel better is 1600km away.. Far Far away.. And I don't feel like explaining that to anyone who doesn't understand already..The plunge.. It seems off course... Pull the string.. Panic strikes. No shoot is released..

And today..

I feel like ass. I woke up about 20 minutes ago.. Just got out of the bath and I have to say I haven't felt like ass for some time. It sucks bad.. I just want to crawl back into bed and never ever wake up. Meh.. Todays gonna rot to the max.. I'm overly depressed.. I feel sick to my guts.. My mind feels like it got no sleep what so ever and my teeth feel like I've been ginding them together for hours. Yay.. I feel so empty inside and my mind is just..Blank.. I need someone to talk to but everyones asleep or at school.-After having read Nicoles post on the summer I feel ever worse then I did before. Just.. Something that brought all the moments back to me.. So.. Now I'm sitting here crying. These walls of glass are fragile, so watch your steps along the narrow path..

Cranked nonsence

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No school today and such

So anyway, I woke up today with just a single line of lyrics drilled into my head and a few tears in my eyes. Got a shower and what not. I had first class off so I lazyed around and played guitar for abit. Trying to get better but I'm not sure if its working. Really making me question playing right handed again. Becuase I've been sucking for along time now, and its not to fun.But 9:40 rolled around and I thought to myself, why goto school. So I called myself in sick and now I'm just here expanding my mind and downloading tons of new music. Yep.. Bored. Maybe it'll be less boring when people wake up."I want to, I want to, I want to stay."

And today

Well, today I woke up for school and was soo tired.I slept though first class, Data. Wow, hardness.I went for Global and one English class, then I went home, fun fun.I seen Dan's car over my grandmothers and went to check that out. Grandma gave me some money and me and Dan left and smoked a joint before he left to go home. I got dropped off in town and left from there and went home at around 7. Town sucked.I watched some of my Guyver eps and then sent them across the network to Peters computer to be burnt. Had a little nap, and here I am just sitting around at 1 AM listening to music off PureVolume. I set my sleeping goal for 2 today. We'll see how that works out.Its hard to belive that its only been aweek since Nicole left. It's felt alot longer then that. Things are going by slowly.. And nights are getting longer. Meh..

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And as for today

Ello Ello.Today was rather uneventful. I went to school at 8:30 and was drained the whoel day. At 1:30 I came home and went to sleep untill around 9 ish, and here I am now rather bored.I was gonna call Nicole since I have her number on my phone, but I hate calling people, lol.Realllyyy bored though. I donno what to do since I just woke up besides sit here. No one really is on so theres nothing at all to do. Firgggg

Lack of sleep fuels my..zz...

GOD DAMN!I do this all the time. I stay up till like 5 and I'm like "Yea I'm good for the day." But eveerryytime I know at 7 I'm gonna be wishing I went to sleep. Right now I am running on backup power. I donno how I'm keeping my eyes open.Learning is going to be A-One in this state. I can't wait to come home and sleeeeeep after school. I totally blame all this on you. Yes, You.

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And on todays menu...

Ello Ello.Well, today was rather boring. I sat here on the computer and looked up some games and anime. Just stuff like that. Played some Xbox. I'm at the last quest in Fable now, but theres still alot of stuff to be done.Anyway, talked to Nicole for abit about being a loser and anime and stuff. Lol. Thats what inspired me to look up some good anime to watch. I found the full "The Guyver: Bio-Booster Armor" series! I'm Dlin' it right now, about 2.5 Gigs. I'm pumpt to be a loser in the future and watch every ep without moving out of my chair. Whoo.Today I had this natural feeling of being down and out for the whole day. Since I woke up I felt really meh-ish. I needa crawl outta my house and go out into the world again like I use to. Sitting around here is dragging me down. My family sucks, they steal everything off me that I have.. And I donno..I miss you..Blah..

When sleeping fails..

Sleeping is one of the things I look forward to most in my day now.. We, besides talking to you, and dreaming that is.But with sleep comes dreaming, and with dreaming comes you. There all linked, and are about the same.. But the stage before sleep is the part of the day I don't look forward too. Laying in my empty bed just longing to hold you makes my eyes tear up. Its one of the hardest parts of my day now, replacing saying bye to you every night while you were still here..The distance is a joke and it feels like we're still together. Thanks to the mindset and feelings we share.This thing is gonna be the end of me, all I do it post post post, but its all I can find that will help me out when I can't talk to you, becuase no one else will really understand.. Well besides you.. And thats all that really matters..

And Yea...

So yea.I got my Xbox from Jones and got ma to drive me to Soby's so I could have an old fasion night like back in the day. Games computer and junk food. I pluged my phone in to rechage and turned it on vibrate. Lots of people were calling me, I just didn't answer. Though everytime it would vibrate I'd look to see the number that was calling, just incase someone important called.Good thing I was looking, becuase I seen a 519 number. First thing that popped into my head was "Must be Nicole?" So I answered and so it was. We talked for afew minutes and yea.. I donno, it was nice of her to call me, I miss hearing her voice alot.. Ahaha I'm a loser.. Saying bye to her on the phone was just as hard as leaving her the last few days she was here, it was weird..*Shrugs* Back to playing Xbox I guess..

Hiho Hiho, its off to Tobins we go?

Alright, best off to start this at where I was coming to town yesterday.At around 4:30 I left for town. The walk was long for some reason. I'd uselly meet Nicole half way to town, so.. I think thats why it felt so long.. Meh..Anyway, I collected everyones money for acid and went to sydney at 6:30 to get it. Came back around 7:30. I had 14 hits. Sadly, I was short one. So Evan who got two, only ended up with one.After this I donno, we went to the show, wasn't all to excitng, besides for when Russ knocked his half stack over, AGAIN. Russ == Champion. lol. Anyway, we desided we were gonna get loaded afterwards at Erics and 4 of us went splits on a 60. We all suck at Math apparently and spent a good hour fighting about how Jones payed all this money and how I owed him money, but ya. We drank.Than magicly lots of booze was gone. Jay poored it into a pop bottle apparently.. But ya.I talked to Nicole on the net a little bit at Eric's.. Urg I hate it. So close yet so far.. I didn't even have the will to drink after that.. But we gathered a few people, me, Jones, Jay and Shane and went on a mission to go see if any mushrooms were growing..Since we didn't have the gas for the adventure, we thought we'd steal it! YAAA!! Good idea! We've done it before and it was easy. Me and Jones got outta the car and baged the plateS. Yes, plateS. Jay had a front plate. So they drove off and me and Jones walked up the road to the point where we'd rip the bags off. We waited..And waited. They didn't come.. We walked back down the road to see if they were coming, only to see them parked on the side of the road with the cops! Busted. LolApparently, they paid for the gas, but they guy still called the cops, and thus they got roped with not showing their plates.. 183 dollar fine. Stinger.. We called Russ and asked him to pick us up. He started his way in, then Jay and Shane drove by and picked us back up and told us what went down. Back on the road to the field.We drove forever and passed the field, hada go backwards a good 10 mins to find it, we're smart.Upon finding the field we tryed to walk in though the woods, no go. We moved the car and tryed some different woods.. Kinda worked, thorn bushes SUCK, so does water.Anyway, we got into the field and looked for mushrooms, found some crazy orange ones. They were wicket cool. I think Jones should have ate it, there was a hosptal up the road, I seen it when we passed the field.. So he wouldn't have died right away. lolThe end result, no mushrooms and a nice fine. Yay for adventures..Right now.. I'm not sure how to feel. My emotions are hitting me in waves.. I'll be happy for abit when my mind is active.. Then I'll see something, anything.. To remind me of the summer.. To remind me of you.. And I'm dragged back down into the deepest darkest erea's of my mind to sulk and wonder what your doing.. And why your not with me right now..When ever I find myself sitting infront of the computer I'll be flicking though the pictures of the summer.. Being happy for a few minutes as I remember the events which lead to each picture, then crashing back down when I feel that empty spot.. Knowing that its not just the summer I'm missing, but more so the person who took the pictures.. </3

"My heart is yours to fill or burst. To break or barry, or wear or as jewellery. Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember.." *Flash back to Laurie's going away party the first night*

Lack of sleep

Another night I lie awakeAnother fight I have to takeEndless thoughts, without withdrawKeep me from my sleep.A section from a poem I wrote oh so many years ago that came to be when I awoke today.Sleeping hasn't been the best the past few nights. I've been getting around 4 hours of sleep, and my body hates me for it. I woke up today at 9 for my second class and my nose just bleed all morning. Its a proven fact that when I don't get enough sleep my nose bleeds, lol. Anyway, I have a killer headache along with it, so I didn't goto school again. -.-Theres a show in NW tonight that I might goto if I don't feel like this, so I might have to get a power snooze in so I can go out for the first time in 3 days...No ones been calling me lately. Uselly my phone is ringing all the time, but it hasn't for a few days now. Its odd.I looked around job bank for awhile and made use of the free time I had. Sent my Resume into a few call center's and lied, saying I graduated. I'm gonna see if I can change my courses to coraspondence courses Monday. Then I can work and graduate, it'll be good.I need to work though. Need the money to move out in the new year..Anyway, Ma's home with all the kids, so I'm gonna crawl into the basement to hide from the noise.

And another one of these suckers

1) First Grade Teacher: Mrs. Reed2) Last word you said: It3) Last song you sang: Yellow - The Game4) Last person you hugged: Nicole6) Last time you said 'I love you': Wed mornin'7) Last time you cried: Today8) What's in your CD player: Don't own a CD player9) What color socks are you wearing: None10) What's under your bed: Random dirt11) What time did you wake up today: 8 AM12) Current taste: Pop13) Current hair: Same as always14) Current clothes: Cords15) Current annoyance: My back16) Current longing: Nicole. :/17) Current desktop picture: Random background image18) Current worry: Work.. School.. Distance19) Current hate: MY BACK20) Story behind your username: Macra: MACeachern RAymond21) Current favourite article of clothing: My brown button up shirt and my brown cords that have no bird in them now lmao22) Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex/same sex: Eyes, smile23) Last CD that you bought: The Ozzman acomith24) Favourite place to be: Anywhere as long as I'm with people I care about25) Least favorite place: Alone26) Time you wake up in the morning: 8 am?27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: Guitar, even though I kinda play anyway.28) Favorite color: White/Brown29) Do you believe in an afterlife: No30) How tall are you: 6`031) Current favourite word/saying: Meow32) Favorite book: Donno33) Favorite season: Fall34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Not to sure.35) Favorite day: Friday36) Where do you want to go: Away..37) What is your career going to be like: Computer Programer38) How many kids do you want?: 239) What kind of car will you have: 71 Buick Riviera Boat Tail40) Type a line you remember from any book: Um..41) A random lyric: TRANSFORMERS! Something evils watching over you, coming from the sky above and theres nothing you can do!42) Identify some things surrounding your computer: LOTS of pop bottles.. um.. My part of a fork, my fan..BASICS1. Who did you give your V card to? Wha?2. What is your sexual orientation? Heterosexual3. Have you ever been with someone of the same sex? No4. If you could take back one person that you've been with, who would it be? Whats done is done5. Do you ever plan on getting married? Someday, but not in a church.. Unless I have to pay the government for it, bastards.6. Do you want to have kids? Yep.7. How many times have you had your heart broken? TwiceALL ABOUT LOVE1. Who was your first crush? Nicole Forward lol2. Who was your first kiss? Your mother :D3. Who was your first total infatuation? Katie, I guess.4. Who was your first true love? KatieANGER1. Who did you last get angry with?: My Mother2. What is your weapon of choice?: Fist, teeth, anything deadly. >:]3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: Depends on there manlyness level.4. How about of the same sex?: The story of my life.5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: Big Matty Lol6. What is your pet peeve?: Teeth grinding7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?: Depends.LUST1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?: Hm, not sure. Not alot.2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? Again, not alot.3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of same/opposite sex?: Mmmm.. Lmao4. Have you "done it"?: "It"? Lol. Yea.5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Face6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?: No?7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? Nope. I hope I'm not pregnet though..GREED1. How many credit cards do you own?: 02. What's your guilty pleasure store?: ?3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?: Acid and E party. Woo. Buy a house, move out. Um.. Ya. lol5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: YAY MEGABUCKS GIVE AWAY6. Have you ever stolen anything?: Yep.7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? 1000+PRIDE1. What are things you've done that you're most proud of?: Not sure2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Um. Donno again.3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: Goto College and get a real job4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?: Sometimes5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?: Yep.6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?: Yep.7. What did you do today that you're proud of?: Sat on my ass for 12 hours. I am the best.LAST BUT NOT LEAST1. Do you love it? ?2. Is it in the air? What?3. Are you happy? Semi-somewhat4. Are you insane? Slighty5. Need anything? Yep..6. Are you glad that this is over? Kinda

The future is now?

So, right now I'm wondering what I want to do with my life again, and finding some new things out and such. I just feel so split and torn right now, I'm not really sure about what I want to do.I'm going to finish highschool, I'll be done of that in January. But what about after that? I really want to get another job and move out of my house. Maybe not to anywhere far away, but just out in general.But then theres schooling after highschool. I've been thinking about going in for a trade the last few days. A quick one year program that will allow me to work in a field for my whole life and make some good money. It sounds really tempting. I've been looking around and a few trades have cought my eye. Industrial Instrumentation Technician is one of the trades that I was looking at. But I'm feeling my joy of computers coming back to me as well. So I'm thinking on going in for IT and studying programing, which can't be done here, but it can be done at Annapolis Valley or at Halifax. So as of right now thats what I'm looking forward to in life..Part of me wants to get the fuck outta here, so taking IT in Halifax would be pretty cool.. But I'm not sure I'm ready to leave everything behind, even if its just for a year of school..I guess right now isn't the best time to be thinking about my future, since I'm kinda unstable as of now. I needa find a way back to the light, the safe place, and back on my feet.

Well then

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Let the hurt begin..

And so I just got home from walking Nicole down the road.. And saying good bye to her..I can't really find words to describe how I feel right now.. I feel really alone and torn, like I just lost a big part of myself.. But I guess no one will really understand that, or how much she ment to be. Besides her, anyway... Got a nice solid 3 hours of crying in earlyer, so I think I'm going to go lay in my bed and work on that some more before I have to goto school and put up with all the people there and there bullshit..I'm lost...

Weekend and such

The weekend wasn't to bad.Friday we went on a LSD trip, but I already kinda explained that in anohter post.Saturday we all drank at Erics. There were a bunch of people there and stuff. It wasn't to bad of a time.I'm pretty sure shits gonna hit the fan soon. Ma found something in my coat pocket that she shouldn't have. I'm not sure if she knew what it was or not though.. Becuase I woke up and it was just on my desk. Its not even that good of a time for shit to be going down.. Nicole leaves Wed morning and I'm not all that sure whats going to happen after that..

Crashing... It all comes.. Crashing?

Well then... I don't quite know how to explain what I feel like now.. The night seemed to be against me to the very end.. And I feel like I'm tore in two and I don't know what to do..The day started off good. Grad BK day. Aka, Get right high and jet around day. So thats what me, Mark, Jay, and Evan did.Later on tonight we went and got a bunch of acid, and things kinda went down hill from there...Nicole called home today and shes leaving Wed... I donno what to do about that.. But really what can I do..I donno.. We went on a big acid mission out the woods... Everyone left at one point to see a fight or something.. I donno. Lol. I'm really stirght outta 'er still..CoupleFoxOld man?It just seems like everything was against me and I don't know what to do with myself after that little turn of effects working with my crank on.I don't know how to explain anything very well right now.. But things seemed to be working against us tonight.I just don't know...

School soonish

Well, the last few days have been rather uneventful. A few things have happened that are worth writing about, but I'm just gonna leave them be. Just chilling out before I head to school, urg, school.

Rather boring day

Well, not much happened today at all.I went to town at like 5:30 and just hung out there for awhile. Nothing really happened at all. Eric showed up later in the night and Nicole, Jonny, Vince and myself went for a drive to Sydeny. We met up with Mark after work and then I just went home after that. Really boring.. Feeling kinda down today too. But it might be just the zonk from the weekend edventure.

A few side notes

As I've come down and up on this little adventure of a weekend I find myself looking at things the same way as I have since Evolve. I love Nature. Mal seems to like Nature too, but it just seems so.. Wild-ish for Mal. Like a mountion man. Lol. Its maddness. I feel alot more at one and equal with everything then that, or I feel like it anyway. Its odd now everyone takes things in and loves them in their own little world.. No one really seems to be on the same level with me since Evolve. That is unless your counting the people I went there with. "Cliff Dwealers".Things all seem so simple now. I just want to write but I don't really have a reason too... But I do. This is why I kinda wished I came home early, to be more fresh and alive to write more.

What a weekend!

So its been afew days, and boy what a few days its been.Right now I feel so used and old, but sleep will fix that. On with the party..Friday night me and Nicole got a quart of Whiskey and Juanita had a party. She was all mintie nise and we all got loaded and such. Some of us left and went to Mark K's house. Where Lew passed out and we sprayed him with shaving cream and drew all over him. Mark thought it would be a good idea to pass out too, so we did the same to him, only made with the chop chop on his mop. Ahaha. It was great fun.After that we left his house and it was like, 5 Am. Nicole found that she was locked out of her house, so me her and Mark went and slept in one of my cars for a few hours. All was well around 9 when we all went home for a good day sleep. Adventure started today when I woke up and Jones called me, then Nicole. I left at like... 6ish and met Nicole then went to town.. We found Eric who said he wanted some E, so we took him up on a drive to Sydney at a later time. We just hung out in town for abit I guess, I can't really remember. Anyway, we went on a mission to sydney to find Eric some E and everyone else some paper goodness.Another middle man cut and gone, I have a steady income for the goodness now. lol. Not that I didn't before, just now its more stable. Anyway. We all got right outta er, basicly anyway. Me, Nicole, Jones, Mark and Brake found ourselves running though threes not knowing to much about anything.. Lots of running in the woods, Wow. We ended up out boomerang pound and chilled there for abit, checked out all that was mint and cool. Walked some more, found some road. 17 anyone? Yea? You? lol. We went up to Eric's new house at like 2 AM, being the retards we are. Then we walked out Russ's home way to get back to town. Lost our minds there. "Wonder Pipe". Ahaha.We walked all the way back to town and chilled at the bandshell for abit. I wish I came home kinda at this point, so I would have been a little fresher writing this. Anyway, this is where Nicole left and we went on a mission in the fog. Finding ourselves in town laying on the ground we thought it'd be a good idea to goto the rocks and watch the sun come up. End Result? MINT. Watching the waves beat on the rocks and feeling the warm sun coming up was unreal.What a weekend... But like I've been saying, I've been having to much fun, and soon its all going to come down. I can feel it. Watch and see.

A look into my sign..

Hey! If anyone really reads this you should post a reply about how well this describes me/doesn't.horoscope sign: ScorpioPersonality Overview: Scorpio is generally recognized as: determined, persistent, intense, emotional, intuitive, forceful yet subtle, imaginative, powerful, generous, loyal, passionate, exciting, and magnetic.On the shadow side: jealous, resentful, obstinate, compulsive, obsessive, brooding, secretive, vengeful, possessive, unyielding, extremist, and can appear cold and impassive.About my signScorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them will recognize the watchfulness that is part of their character. They need great self-discipline, because they are able to recognize the qualities in themselves that make them different from other humans, and to know their utterly conventional natures can be used for great good, or great evil. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. Their sensitivity, together with a propensity for extreme likes and dislikes make them easily hurt, quick to detect insult or injury to themselves (often when none is intended) and easily aroused to ferocious anger. This may express itself in such destructive speech or action that they make lifelong enemies by their outspokenness, for they find it difficult not to be overly critical of anything or anyone to whom they take a dislike.They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous. Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency.They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average. They have a better chance of becoming geniuses than the natives of any other sign.But charismatic "twice-born" characters such as they can sink into the extremes of depravity if they take the wrong path, and the intensity of their nature exaggerates their harmful tendencies into vices far greater than the normal. Rebelliousness against all conventions, political extremism to the point where hatred of the Establishment makes them utterly unscrupulous terrorists. Brooding resentment, aggressive and sadistic brutality, total arrogance, morbid jealousy, extreme volatility of temperament, these are some of their vices. At the other extreme is the procrastinator, the man or woman who is capable of so much that they do nothing and become indolent and self-indulgent, requiring extravagant praise and flattery from those whom they make their cronies.Being so gifted, they can find fulfillment in many employments. Their inner intensity can result in the ice-cold self-control and detachment of the surgeon, the concentration of the research scientist, and the heroism of the soldier. Any profession in which analysis, investigation, research, dealing with practicalities, and the solving of mysteries are relevant, can appeal to them. So police and detective work, espionage and counterespionage, the law, physics or psychology may attract them, and they can become masters of the written and spoken word. They may be most persuasive orators and find fulfillment as diplomats or preachers and, if they make the Church their profession, their inner intensity can express itself in the spiritual fervor of the mystic or the thaumaturgy.Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an "outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace.". Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. They are thus capable of the greatest heights of passionate transport, but debauchery and perversion are always dangers, and Scorpios can become sadistic monsters of sensuality and eroticism. Their feelings are so intense that even when their love is of the highest, and most idealistic kind, they are nevertheless frequently protagonists in tragic, even violent romances, "star-crossed lovers".Possible Health Concerns...Scorpio governs the pelvis and reproductive and urinary systems and its subjects are said to be prone to ailments of the liver and kidneys, stones and gravel in the bladder or genitals, and other genital ills such as priapism. Abscesses, boils, carbuncles, fistulas, piles, ruptures and ulcers may also affect the Scorpions.Scorpio: Likes and dislikesLikes¤ Truth ¤ Hidden Causes ¤ Being involved ¤ Work That is Meaningful ¤ Being PersuasiveDislikes¤ Being Given Only Surface data ¤ Taken Advantage of ¤ Demeaning Jobs ¤ Shallow Relationships ¤ Flattery and Flattering

A look into my sign..

Hey! If anyone really reads this you should post a reply about how well this describes me/doesn't.horoscope sign: ScorpioPersonality Overview: Scorpio is generally recognized as: determined, persistent, intense, emotional, intuitive, forceful yet subtle, imaginative, powerful, generous, loyal, passionate, exciting, and magnetic.On the shadow side: jealous, resentful, obstinate, compulsive, obsessive, brooding, secretive, vengeful, possessive, unyielding, extremist, and can appear cold and impassive.About my signScorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them will recognize the watchfulness that is part of their character. They need great self-discipline, because they are able to recognize the qualities in themselves that make them different from other humans, and to know their utterly conventional natures can be used for great good, or great evil. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. Their sensitivity, together with a propensity for extreme likes and dislikes make them easily hurt, quick to detect insult or injury to themselves (often when none is intended) and easily aroused to ferocious anger. This may express itself in such destructive speech or action that they make lifelong enemies by their outspokenness, for they find it difficult not to be overly critical of anything or anyone to whom they take a dislike.They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous. Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency.They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average. They have a better chance of becoming geniuses than the natives of any other sign.But charismatic "twice-born" characters such as they can sink into the extremes of depravity if they take the wrong path, and the intensity of their nature exaggerates their harmful tendencies into vices far greater than the normal. Rebelliousness against all conventions, political extremism to the point where hatred of the Establishment makes them utterly unscrupulous terrorists. Brooding resentment, aggressive and sadistic brutality, total arrogance, morbid jealousy, extreme volatility of temperament, these are some of their vices. At the other extreme is the procrastinator, the man or woman who is capable of so much that they do nothing and become indolent and self-indulgent, requiring extravagant praise and flattery from those whom they make their cronies.Being so gifted, they can find fulfillment in many employments. Their inner intensity can result in the ice-cold self-control and detachment of the surgeon, the concentration of the research scientist, and the heroism of the soldier. Any profession in which analysis, investigation, research, dealing with practicalities, and the solving of mysteries are relevant, can appeal to them. So police and detective work, espionage and counterespionage, the law, physics or psychology may attract them, and they can become masters of the written and spoken word. They may be most persuasive orators and find fulfillment as diplomats or preachers and, if they make the Church their profession, their inner intensity can express itself in the spiritual fervor of the mystic or the thaumaturgy.Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an "outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace.". Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. They are thus capable of the greatest heights of passionate transport, but debauchery and perversion are always dangers, and Scorpios can become sadistic monsters of sensuality and eroticism. Their feelings are so intense that even when their love is of the highest, and most idealistic kind, they are nevertheless frequently protagonists in tragic, even violent romances, "star-crossed lovers".Possible Health Concerns...Scorpio governs the pelvis and reproductive and urinary systems and its subjects are said to be prone to ailments of the liver and kidneys, stones and gravel in the bladder or genitals, and other genital ills such as priapism. Abscesses, boils, carbuncles, fistulas, piles, ruptures and ulcers may also affect the Scorpions.Scorpio: Likes and dislikesLikes¤ Truth ¤ Hidden Causes ¤ Being involved ¤ Work That is Meaningful ¤ Being PersuasiveDislikes¤ Being Given Only Surface data ¤ Taken Advantage of ¤ Demeaning Jobs ¤ Shallow Relationships ¤ Flattery and Flattering

And for today...

Well, today was rather uneventful.I didn't goto school and slept till about 3 PM. I felt alot better after eating fist fulls of pills, so at around 6 I went to town to meet Nicole and Jones. Got to town and sat around for abit, nothing really much went on. At like... 10:30 the lot of us went to Mark K's house and just chilled for abit. The only really eventful part of my night was when a song came on, though I'm not to sure what it was, and I listened to the lyrics.. Left Marks at around 12:30 and just got home now.Tomorrow, er today, is Friday, and I'm going to goto school and see what I can do about changing to SA. Hopefully it'll work out well.As for right now, I'm off to sleep. Tomorrow(Or today) is gonna be a BLAST. Loadedness all around.

Hello freedom?

So, I goto work today to find that I'm just going to get a really really bad sinus headache.. My hands where shaking and everything. I called Jimmy and Amy to see if they'd work for me, but I couldn't get ahold of eather of them. Not wanting to deal with Alexis I thought I could stay at work. But then I remembered I'd be alone for part of the night, and I was scared to work alone becuase I thought I was gonna pass out.. So, instead, I left and quit.Grand da came and picked me up and I fell asleep on the way home.When I got home I figgered I'd go out and see everyone and shit, to cheer myself up some. But I just got sicker. After staying at the pretty park abit, Jorden and Vicky came and they drove me and Nicole to Jonny's. Few people were there, just playing XBox. I started to burn up, and didn't feel to shit hot. I left at 12 ish and crawled home with Vince, Jones, and Nicole.. I hope that sleep will fix me up.After having just taken a few pills to fix my head, I'm going to set my aways and go sleep for 16 hours. Go Go Healing sleep/Magic Pills.Later!

And for today!

Well, I woke up at 10:30 feeling kinda sick. I got a shower and what not and went to school for 11:30 to pick what courses I wanted. Alot of them were full, and BEC's course selection sucks bad. So I'm in English 12, Global 12, and Data 12. Not to fun, I want to take courses like Philosophy and Sociology. Not computer courses. Urg.After that I just chilled outside with everyone over the rink and came home about 10 mins ago since I didn't want to goto a teachers class that doesn't know I'm on her list yet.I've got work at 5... And I'm still questioning quiting.. Alot. I donno what I should do. I really really don't want to work.. But I really really need an income. What to do what to do.. Thats all for now! Check back later. I'm out.

The \\...

The \\Last Cigarette:Never smoked one.Last Alcoholic Drink:Whiskey! Friday night :DLast Car Ride:TuesdayLast Kiss:TuesdayLast Good Cry:SundayLast Library Book:Not sureLast book bought:D&D 3rd Core Rule BookLast Book Read:October SkyLast Movie Seen in Theatres:Lord of the Rings 3Last Movie Rented:Lord of the Rings: The Two TowersLast Cuss Word Uttered:Whore!Last Beverage Drank:Some kinda frute drinkLast Food Consumed:Pizza!Last Crush:Current..Nicole.Last Phone Call:JonesLast TV Show Watched:Trading Spaces?Last Time Showered:About 10 mins agoLast Shoes Worn:LugsLast CD Played:Bright EyesLast Item Bought:Bag of chipsLast Download:Blog pluginLast Annoyance:Cazy little kidsLast Disappointment:Waking up only to find I didn't have any classes todayLast Soda Drank:PepsiLast Thing Written:Pepsi?Last Key Used:/Last Words Spoken:"See you Thursday then I guess."Last Sleep:Last night?Last Ice Cream Eaten:Tuesday, Orange PinappleLast Chair Sat In:Computer chair?Last Webpage Visited:http://www.kwiz.biz/simplesurveys/do-survey.phpCREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

And today in my life...

So! I went to school today, only to find out that the school has me registered for no corses. Even though last year I signed up for 8 of them! God bless our education system. Anyway, gotta pick my corses tomorrow at 11:30. So its all good I guess.I went to town at like.. 3:30-4 ish to meet Nicole in the pretty park. Vicky and Jorden were down there along with her when I got there, so we all just layed around there for abit. Evan came sometime after, and then Whitney came. Everyone went for a town shot so me and Nicole went for a walk down the shore to check out the waves and look at the stars. Side effect from Evolve, nature is awsome.Jones called me at some point in the star gazing and we told him we'd meet him in town. On our way to town we got picked up by Nita and her sister, so that was a free drive up the road. Go lazyness.We all stood around at the pretty park for awhile, people smoked drugs and such. Sherri blew up in her car jammed packed fulla people, Mal and Vince came to town. Stright out party in the pretty park, untill Callum came. He was all fucked up, loaded, on pills, and apparnetly he got a beaten.. We were all leaving and Mark went to walk Callum home. Then all I seen was Callum walking down the road with Mark and someone else coming after them. Turns out Callum enjoys rapping his head of peoples doors on the way home, but people don't really enjoy that.. So buddy chased them down the road. We ran down after them to see what was up and walked down the road with them a little bit, only to stop as Callum desided to bolt into another random house and ask for smokes. I donno what really happened now, he went into guys house, I guess he stole his smokes and tryed to get away and broke guys door. End result, Mark K and Lew(Whom we met while walking Callum down the road) walked Callum home and me and Nicole went up the road on out way home.Over all, a really fun day.. And I enjoyed it alot. Tomorrow on the other hand... I have work.. Meh. Not so fun.. I wish I didn't have to close so I could still go out with everyone in the night. :/

Urg!

Alright. I just finished writing a huge first post, but my computer thought it would be a great idea to freeze as I was posting it. *Sigh* Anyway, I'll just go over the last week or so of my summer now that my huge post is lost -.-Last week we went to Evolve. And Evolve was the only word for it. Me, Shawn and April went in his car and Nicole, Jonny, Vicky, and Milissa went in Russ's car. We left on Thursday, a day early. This was one of the best weekends of my life. I had such a blast and came to know Nicole and Milissa alot more as friends due to it.When we got back from Evolve some of us had a slight taste for some of the more popular drugs that were there with us, E and Acid namely. E was done alot over the last week by alot of my friends, and I think it seriously changed my train of thought.. But I think its for the better, as I am alot more open minded now and have a strange love for nature. Though all of this change I've found that someone has been beside me the whole time and seemingly changing along with me. Its really odd, but in just a little over a week I've come to feel like I've known Nicole for my whole life and I'd trust her with anything. Thats why I don't regret anything that I've done in the last week or so. Its all lead to something thats really new to me and has never happened before. Time is flying by so quick. Laurie's second party felt like a huge leap forward for me too. I skecthed out on E that night and had some pretty intense talks with alot of my old and new friends. Which I hope all of them will remember, becuase alot of what I said that night was stright from the heart, and opening up doesn't come easy to me, for the most part anyway.All in all.. Its been the best summer of my life. The last week and a half changed me in ways I can't explain to anyone. I don't expect most people to understand, and those who I do expect to... Well I'm sure they already do, becuase they went though it with me and were by my side the whole time.School started today, and I have to go back tomorrow becuase they messed my corses up. But thats not all to bad I guess. I feel to fresh and full of emotion to really care about school, or that is, to let school bother me.Thats it for now, check back soon because I hope to keep this updated.